He had said that, but now thinking things over he saw clearly that it would be better to manage to avoid that; and at the same time, as he told himself so, he was afraid whether it was not wrong.
"If I told her to leave her husband, that must mean uniting her life with mine; am I prepared for that? How can I take her away now, when I have no money? Supposing I could arrange....
But how can I take her away while I'm in the service? If I say that--I ought to be prepared to do it, that is, I ought to have the money and to retire from the army.
" And he grew thoughtful.
The question whether to retire from the service or not brought him to the other and perhaps the chief though hidden interest of his life, of which none knew but he.